To the Mother who Lost Herself in Special Needs Parenting.

I see you giving all of yourself.

I see you taking the beating of your child’s angry outburst.

You matter.

I see you wiping the tears from your child but also secretly from yourself while you look down for a moment.

I see you going to an endless array of specialist and therapist visits.

I see you struggling to keep your child calm content and occupied in the waiting room, hopeful for some good news at this appointment.

Your efforts are worth it.

I see you searching all night long for options.

I see your list of new things to try.

I see you asking other mothers how their child was able to reach higher milestones than your own.

I see that you haven’t slept or maybe even showered in longer than you’d care to reveal.

I see that you haven’t bought or done something for yourself in months.

I see your exhaustion.

I see your love.

Don’t stop.

I see your self-sacrificing wonder for your child.

I see you calming the meltdown.

I see you implementing the strategies you learned because you’ll do anything to make this better for your child.

I see that you don’t even know who you used to be before this role began.

I see you.

Other people see you.

But, I know what you are going through.

I see your sadness wrapped up in a hopeful smile sitting in the therapy waiting room.

I see your heart melt when your child gives you a sweet look in the midst of the chaos.

I see you waking up to do it all over agin the next day.

I see your beauty and your value.

I see you not giving up no matter how hard it gets.

I see the courage and determination in you that is stronger than the disappointments and setbacks.

I see you.

And, I see me in you.

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ngarcia0715

I am just a mom on a journey. Trying my best to do it right. Making lots of mistakes along the way. Enjoying having a community that gets it, to share it all with.

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