Sometimes I Need to Wallow in It.

Sometimes I need to wallow in it.
Sometimes the days are just too hard. Sometimes it’s all too much. Sometimes I don’t want to do it anymore. Sometimes it just feels so unfair. Sometimes the joy is hard to come by. Sometimes that’s just too sad to think about. Sometimes I try and try, and it still doesn’t get better. Sometimes I’m tired of trying. Sometimes I don’t want to try anything else anymore. Some days I just don’t want to get out of bed at all. I know they need me. I find what I need to inside of me to survive, but sometimes it just hurts so much to keep going. Sometimes it’s just so exhausting. Sometimes I hate the things that make this so hard. Sometimes I look at his little face and I wish things could be easier. Sometimes I hate that there is no real rest in this. Sometimes I want to scream. Sometimes I hate the things that don’t go the way I hoped. Sometimes I’m better. I learn to let it go. But there are days I just need to wallow in it. On those days, I’ll have to let it go tomorrow.

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ngarcia0715

I am just a mom on a journey. Trying my best to do it right. Making lots of mistakes along the way. Enjoying having a community that gets it, to share it all with.

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